| Damage control. Maybe. Almost. Over. "!". |
[Nov. 17th, 2009|02:23 pm] |
I've missed you guys, too.
Now I get to look forward to that "sorta awkward starting everything all over again, again" part. AGAIN. Yippee.
Next time the world comes crashing down around me, maybe I should just let it crash instead.
Also, there's a new Career Services Center opening here, where the Melodrama used to be. Go figure. |
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| AAAAH! I've fallen into 1976 and I can't get out! |
[Sep. 6th, 2009|01:09 am] |
No, seriously; I'm watching over my bedridden Grandma. There's no internet access there, and I don't have cellphone minutes very often, now. She's expected to be better by around Halloween. Or so I hope. I might be gone awhile. I'm pretty much the only relative left that's in any position to help her, too.
On the bright side, it gets me out of the toxic house. |
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| Over the river and through the woods... |
[Aug. 24th, 2009|09:14 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  calm | ] |
Going to visit my Grandmas tomorrow. The Great-Grammy's been wrestling with pain a bit lately, and I need to talk with someone on that side of the family to find out why my Pa's grave has no headstone (yet?). We were just up there today to do some grave-grooming and noticed it.
It DOES involve me crossing the Kern River, and going through a small grove around Riverwalk Park.
In other sucky news, my DDR EXTREME (USA) savegame is corrupted. ~.~ I may just leave "Memories" locked this time. |
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| Up all night... |
[Aug. 15th, 2009|03:32 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | rejuvenated | ] |
Well, this trip HAS been a nice, relaxing break from everyday struggles. Not quite as socially inclined as I'd like it... or my life right now, to be. But it's nothing to complain about. So here in just a day or two, I'll be on my way back to town. Back to... business as usual... monkey business, or it might as well be!
I've been getting some reasonable, tangible things I'd like to accomplish going on in my head again. Which is really good, considering I'd spent a good amount of time really lost and directionless lately. Especially in this last month. Some little things include a newer kind of TV, an XBox 360 (and some kind of DDR/Fighter-friendly replacement controller, ASAP!), and getting it online/broadband. Getting my car fixed and/or replaced. MAYBE, just maybe getting into a place of my own by the end of the year. (Somewhere coastal, but accessible is looking very good right about now! Even midtown would be a step in the right direction, though.) Getting my computer fixed up and upgraded soon is a must, too.
I'd also like to whip up the rest of my Zmix Project, the Rockman Supreme project (corresponding with song updates like these? HELL YEAH.), and a DDR marathon video project off the ground, as well. Maybe see myself as part of a happy, attractive, fun-loving, exciting and playful couple even. Stranger things have happened, I'm sure.
I also really want that kind of light-hearted, fun-loving relationship with more of my family, but they just aren't that way most of the time... I can do my side of things all I want, that's not going to change the way they are. So that part might just be out of my hands; and maybe the best I can do is to not let the way they are constrict me so much. But then, I haven't really been to out-and-about around here, either... so maybe part of it IS me. :|
9.9 Now, for the fun part. Determining exactly how I'm going to accomplish all of this by year's end, given fickle markets/employment, while balancing responsibilities, and being there for my family when they need me. And believe me, I get the feeling THEY WILL.
( Music: Wood Man (MMX2 remix) / KoD83 (kazi) vs. U-DON ) |
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| Writer's Block: Proven by Science |
[Aug. 12th, 2009|08:51 pm] |
Doesn't seem like people do, anymore. :b
The irony of science is that the only thing it ultimately proves, is how many things there are that we DON'T understand. If anything, life proves science, not the other way around. ;) |
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| REALISATION... |
[Aug. 10th, 2009|04:29 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  nerdy | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Dragon Blade / Kozo Nakamura | ] |
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| Writer's Block: Memo to Myself |
[Aug. 10th, 2009|03:54 pm] |
Ummm... don't look so forward? *lol*
Well. Got word from Mom, mixed news. Well first off, I need to refill my phone, and I'm within my last $40 with about a week to go here. Apparently now I'm getting mail, the DMV somehow screwed up getting my DL renewal mailed out, but managed to get another registration billing through. Motherfuckers. And apparently now ALL of my student loan debt has been consolidated and capitalized in a single, overwhelming $18,xxx bill.
Mom is going to Denver for a couple of weeks in September now, because Grandma Edie is getting bypass surgery (for the 2nd time), so she might be there a whole month, leaving Bill and I - alone together - for half to a whole month - in either a hotel (if the renovation gets that far), or in the third of our house that's left. >.> With me being obviously, and irrepairably broke, in the meantime.
Watch us end up storming D.C., too. XD
I THOUGHT THIS WACKY SHIT WAS OVER WITH ALREADY!! |
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| Construction paper. |
[Aug. 9th, 2009|03:55 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Huntington Beach, CA | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  down | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Zmix 09 (Heavenly) - Nightime | ] |
( Blabbering. Free to ignore. )
__________
I guess work on the kitchen back home is going slowly, as is my brother's thumb recovery. Grandma Jerry's hip replacement has gone well, though she may need a hand getting stuff down low, like tending her gardens. Grandma Lola's headed to a coastal getaway of her own right now, she sure needs one.
And I may be in a bit of luck, as my Aunt Ellen wants some videogame tutoring so she can better interact with their other little grandchildren. :) They're really smart and cool, too; I never did get to spend enough time with them... so that's something I CAN (and really do) look forward to.
Now, I just need some new teeth, and a way to make myself taller/more wealthy. (I get the feeling there's a cause-and-effect with that, and it might be a little backwards in it's execution. But hopefully, effective!) |
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| Southern comfort... |
[Aug. 3rd, 2009|11:04 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Huntington Beach, CA | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  peaceful | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Take A Chance / neuras | ] |
So here, I've finally got set up, and I'm relaxing a bit, enjoying the sights and such around Huntington Beach, where I'm house-sitting for a friend of mine. (Hence the hiatus from posting.) Already been out and about a little bit, and for the most part, it's really nice here. Especially the weather, since it's not crazy hot by the coast like it is inland.
Ironically, for a subset of L.A. County, this is probably one of the most beautiful and environmentally friendly places I've ever seen. Cars aren't overbearing the roads, and seeing people travel by bike isn't uncommon. The air is constantly fresh, between the coastal breeze and not being surrounded by smog-trapping mountains. And though they much stick to themselves a lot, much of the people here are really polite and courteous.
This would be a nice place to live. I would suggest checking it out sometime, if you haven't. And also, I have enviously missed YET ANOTHER ComicCon and AnimeExpo this year. *sigh* I'm beginning to wonder if that's EVER gonna change! Still, not a bad time to be me.
I haven't heard a whole lot from my family, lately. I hope (and trust) that they're doing okay... I get the feeling the only time I WOULD hear from them, is if something's terribly wrong.
I'll be getting back to town sometime on the 17th. |
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| Writer's Block: Do Not Open Until 2059 |
[Aug. 3rd, 2009|11:01 am] |
THIS.
Can you believe they actually make it all the way through? Bear in mind, anything that scores points = autofail, as illustrated early on. Freakin' NUTS! :D |
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| Writer's Block: Total Eclipse of the Sun |
[Jul. 22nd, 2009|08:54 am] |
A new beginning, which my life, and many of those I know right now desperately needs at the moment! (And this time, hoping to God that they DON'T feel that way.) |
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| The Greatest Man Ever. |
[Jul. 21st, 2009|10:04 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  melancholy | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | THE REASON / Black Rose Garden | ] |
This past weekend, amidst tons of family emergencies, my family lost the most wonderful and unconditionally loving person I've ever seen it have, my "Pa." My Great-Grandpa, Ralph "Gooch" Goodrich died about 2:30 am last Saturday, at 84 years old.
I can't imagine there was anybody in the world who knew this guy, and didn't love him. He dedicated every waking moment of his life to creating warmth and joy, and sharing it with anybody lucky enough to be in his company. And that was a great many thousand people, no doubt.
He taught me just about everything. How to read. Write. Be good at math. Enjoy life. Build and tinker. Fight when I have to, but to avoid hurting others when I can. A terrific gardener, always surrounded by the generous numbers of the biggest, ripest pickings; none of which he ever sold. He was always giving and sharing, in everything that he did.
He quite literally made me the kind of man I am today. And I dread the thought of my kids, my family, and my future without this amazing guy involved in it. If you met the guy, he loved you. He loved me, he loved all of us... and most importantly, he loved... PERIOD.
It wasn't a tremendous shocker. I saw it coming... saw him putting his affairs in order. Last couple of times I visited him, just a couple weeks ago... it looked like what he wanted to do more than anything was just rest. And now, he can. |
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| Are we there yet?! |
[Jul. 16th, 2009|06:30 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | crushed | ] |
Right. So things can't get any worse, right? ^.^
Today I get to take one of the parent's automobiles in to get fixed. Yippee. And the AC input on my computer is now discombobulated as well; so I PROBABLY won't be doing a whole ton of updating from here on. AGAIN. At least until I can get it fixed or replaced. I managed to wipe one disc out by backing up approximately 1% of everything I wanted to save, before the thing totally ran out of juice.
So now, I get to look forward to posting "discontinued indefinitely until further notice" messages regarding EVERY project I've been working on. :(
They say bad things come in thirties, right? No? Well they should start. }:$
ALSO: I'll probably be far too busy (with family stuff) for the rest of the month to do anything about it, now. Next month isn't looking too rosy, either. a.a |
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| Writer's Block: My Ideal Life Ten Years from Now… |
[Jul. 9th, 2009|07:26 am] |
I've gone through so many ideal lifestyle outcomes that... well, it's really hard to imagine right now to be honest. Things as they are now are certainly NOT how I imagined my life being 10 years ago, that's for sure. :|
An energy-efficient flying car would be cool. Some hotties to zoom around in it with, maybe ones that enjoy fighting and musical videogames that I will be getting paid to master. And bacon, lots of bacon. And beef and cookies. Finally, a nice-sized, but not impossible-to-maintain house fully paid for.
Pssh. Wouldn't THAT be nice? (/unrealistic) |
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| Rockin'. |
[Jun. 26th, 2009|03:50 pm] |
Among the great things I got for my birthday, PS2-software versions of Guitar Hero: WT and Rock Band 2 were good highlights. I've played each one about a day... and I'm now wondering what others have been for probably close to half a year now. Are they both basically the same game? ^.^
I mean, so far it looks like at *least* 20-25% of the tracklist(s) appear in both games! Even though, technically, they DO appear to play somewhat differently in each (Eye of the Tiger /Survivor, Come Out And Play /Offspring, and Living On A Prayer /Bon Jovi, Go Your Own Way /Fleetwood Mac for a few good examples). XD
Strange to me, seeing as these are all major bands, with a LOT of popular songs. Why not at *least* change the track choices between the two titles? o.O
It's still all good and fun, though - I'm just glad to be getting back up to speed. Playing "Hard" again, because it's been a long time (since GH2, actually) since I've gone axe-wielding. I probably COULD do Expert charts, but I'm still 4-starring most of the Hard ones. I'll play Expert more once everything's opened up.
Maybe I'll pick up a track pack, sometime. Also, I should consider a new MemCard... I'm practically FULL on my primary/only one, and there are some songs I'd like to edit together... KoF themes, MegaMan themes, DDR songs (full-length rock-edits?), you name it! |
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| Things to be thankful for as I hit the big twenty-hate... |
[Jun. 24th, 2009|03:17 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | calm | ] |
After a year of freelancing and relatively obscure unemployment, at least my debt isn't mounting very much. In fact, assuming I happen upon a means, I may even get the Student Loan creditors to settle.
I'm still in relatively good health. And my family, in spite of theirs sometimes, are hanging on pretty well, to boot. Most of my friends are still in good shape, too.
After what seems like a long time, reconnecting with older friends and making more new ones is a very exciting and fun aspect of my life, presently.
My family is slowly, roughly, but still surely "warming up" this year. I think we're all becoming a little more understanding, given events of this past year. And of all of the questionable places I could have wound up, this may even be the safest and least threatening.
A good number of people appear to be enjoying much of DDR PwrMix, and those I've discussed it with like the concept of Rockman Supreme. I just need to stop being so procrastinative/lazy about producing that and The Zmix Project. There's still 4-5 more mixings I'd like to put together, and I still need to get artwork and stepcharts created for them.
Being able to get online more often and more easily than in the past; and the enriching characters and people it allows me to interact with. If only I could have some of them over for cards or videogames more often. Starting with "ever."
Randomly fun discoveries like Spelunky, I Wanna Be The Guy, the Endless Attack hacks of Rockman 2/3/5, and so forth. Pirateship-budget gaming like that.
Being granted the serenity to not take this financial/professional peril so personally, and the assurance that life will go on just fine in spite of it. This issue is temporary, moreso than lives are. And the willingness to enjoy and embrace simple joys in the midst of it.
My exposure to the world of sales and marketing, if nothing else, for the insights of their processes, the positive atmosphere they tend to foster (and the occasional revelation that many cases of it is false-fronted, which is kind of disappointing/sad). And for realizing that there are skills of which I'm good at... and some maybe not so much.
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So I may have to reevaluate my goals, my place in the world, and so forth. My "Plan A" and just about all of the viable alternatives I've thought of so far have totally flopped. But I see a few people that made it rather big in the last 10 years, and exactly where most of them have ended up. Kind of an unexpected blessing to not necessarily be in their shoes right now. And where to go from here? I guess there's only one way to know.
( Place your bets! ) |
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